Ok ok ok I am back friends!

OK so where do I even begin? First of all this is a pic of one of the beaches in Half Moon Bay, John and I went there this past Friday, such a nice day!

Things with John and I could really not be better. I planned a trip to Pismo Beach for his birthday in May so we are looking forward to that. I have been keeping busy with my latest hobby- Fantasy Baseball. I did my own team for the first time this year, it can be somewhat time consuming but it's fun(at least to me).

I am still back at home paying off my old debt and working from home. My schedule kinda sucks on days like this when it's nice out cause i work Tuesday-Thursday 11-8 and Mondays and Fridays 8-5.

I am attempting Weight Watchers and I have one week under my belt. It is kinda hard to keep track of all the pts and stuff, but I DEFINITELY need to drop some poundage before my trip to Maui in June... that is coming up QUICK!

On another note ( and not such a pleasant one),

My aunt who has been battling cancer for the past 3 yrs (she was previously in remission for 7 yrs but it came back with a vengeance in 2006) has been quickly declining. Her cancer came back as metastatic in the brain and lungs, and she responded well to chemo and radiation for the first few years, but recently the brain lesions have grown a lot. It is affecting her balance, her memory, her bladder control, and it is really hard to watch her go through all that. My family and her family have come together as a unit to help them out as much as possible through this difficult time.

My aunt, cousins Brian and Lauren, and my sister and I

2009!!!!

Hey everyone!


It has literally been over 6 months since I last posted. So many things have changed!

First off, I hated my job that i went to and actually am now back at CCCS. I returned there in September, and actually was given the opportunity to work from home full-time since November. It's great cause commuting to the city was expensive ($12 a day!!) and time consuming. I moved back in with the parentals to save some money.

Also I have been dating a new guy since last August. We just made it official in January. His name is John and he lives in Danville. Things are going really well so far. He likes to travel and eat all types of food like me and he loves baseball and football, so needless to say we are a good match!

More to come later!!!

Change...... necessary but not at all fun

So.......

Tony and I are officially done for the time being as of yesterday. We have not had a physical relationship in months, so we have basically been like roommates more than like bf/gf.

So far I hate this, but I know that time will ease the pain. He said that he knows I am headed towards marriage, and moving forward with my career, but he isn't ready for that. He said that he cannot be the bf I need him to be right now because he has a lot of matters (student loan debt, etc) he needs to get straightened out in his own life, and that it is not fair to me because he would not be thinking about me as much as he should be.

He said that he does still have feelings for me, but right now the best thing he can do is be my best friend. He said that he doesn't want me to leave his life because I am key to his survival. I am fine with that, since we haven't had much of a relationship recently anyway.

The living situation makes it really difficult for us. The rent for our 1 BR is almost $1200 a month and though I can afford it on my own, it will be very very tight. I need him to leave because otherwise it is going to be too hard for both of us to accept this for what it is and begin to heal.

Overall, I am doing as well as can be expected. I knew this was a possibility, but I really thought we would be able to work through this rough patch.

The old cliche phrase, "everything happens for a reason," is so over said but so true. : (

Farewell

So I gave Dustin to a co-worker who just moved into a bigger house in San Leandro with a nice yard for him to play in. I took him over to meet her and her husband, and her husband loved him, and wanted him right then and there. I left him there last night, and I called to check on him and he is doing great, Judy said he absolutely adores Ralph. The good thing is that once he gets settled I will still be able to see him on occasion. It just sucks that I wasn't able to give him what he needed. I did do what was best for him though and that is what matters, right? : (

Meagan made it to Mississippi yesterday. I am sad she is far away again, but she is finally in the same place as her hubby so I am also happy for her.

update

Ok so I know it has been awhile since I have posted. I thought it was time for an update on my life happenings.

I really don't like my new job. It is just mindless work, and I feel that I need to be challenged everyday. I spend a good 2-3 hours stuffing envelopes and processing mail. The other time is usually spent doing whatever my boss asks me to do.

I have decided to pursue a career in law enforcement since that is what my degree is in. I have applied for Police Dispatcher for the City of Walnut Creek, and I also just took a test for Alcoholic Beverage Control Investigator, and I find out in 2 months if I will be placed in 1 of 25 different locations throughout California. i didn't know it was for all over, and Tony really won't want to move, but I guess we will cross that bridge when we come to it. I am not doing long distance so if he doesn't move with me (if I have to move) then we may be done. I mean I am just trying to prepare myself for the worst case scenario.

On a different note, I have to find a new home for my dog Dustin. He snapped at a man at the lady who fostered him's house last week. She had never seen him do that, though he did do it two other times, so not that it is good that it happened, but at least now she believes me. We have to find him a home with no kids and someone who is less social than me with a yard, as he doesn't do well with strangers. Obviously something happened to him in the past that we don't know about. There is a shelter in utah that is on a ranch we can send him to if all else fails, they don't kill there, and he would have plenty of room to run.

I got a kitten for Snapple because she needs someone to keep her company. I wasn't planning to get one till I found a home for Dustin, but she was just too cute. I named her Izzie and she is white with gray on her ears. Dustin loves her, and Snapple is afraid of her haha.

The wedding!!!!

Ok so let's see... amazing, incredible, beautiful.... that is what the wedding for my best friend Meagan was. I was the maid-of-honor as I mentioned in other blogs, and everything went wonderfully. My speech was as follows: (I totally winged it and it was awesome!)

"This is going to be short, sweet, and to the point. I am not going to insult because she is better than that, and I am not going to try to be funny. I have had the pleasure of knowing Meagan and Bob for the past 5 years. Meg and I have been through a lot together, but she has been an amazing friend to me and that's why I know she will be a wonderful wife to Bob. Meagan was one of the first people I met when I moved to Michigan, and she was also one of the first people to make fun of my "California accent." Oddly enough, she moved from Michigan to California and she got a taste of her own medicine. I love you both very much, and here's to one year- and only one year, in Mississippi."

So I did good, had a blast, and that pretty much sums it up... oh and I caught the bouquet, watch out Tony : )

1 week down!

Ok so first of all let me just say, Vegas was crrazzzyyy fun, but not too much to handle because most of us that went are 24, 25 , 26 so we didn't get too wild. I am much too tired to post pics, but just take my word for it, it was a good time celebrating Meagan's last few weeks of single-dom. I can't believe one of my best friends is getting married in less than 3 weeks, and the pressure is on for me the maid-of-honor. I think I 'm doing ok so far, now here's hoping I can still fit in my dress ; ) ( I am planning to go on an all protein, no carbs, no sugar diet for the remaining 2 1/2 weeks till the wedding, that should help right? I am going to take my dogs to the dog park 3 days a week and workout 2, plus walk everyday, so cross your fingers! As far as the new job, I have one week under my belt, and let's just say I feel a little overqualified for the postion. Friday was spent folding invoices and stuffing envelopes for literally the entire workday. But I just keep telling myself there will be opportunity for a promotion in the future, and that I am making more money doing mindless things here than I was at CCCS. But yeah, it's comfortable, small, my boss is super nice, and we have free snacks and lunch stuff. So I like it!


Alright alright here you go